I remember when I began my search for self and the meaning of life in college. I was intent on getting there fast. I had a lot of ideas and a lot of energy. I thought I could figure it all out pretty quickly and then just move on to being a great success. Very puer, or rather the feminine puella, very dynamic, enchanting, and vulnerable; nothing could stop me. I had a lot of success and innovative ideas that kept propelling me forward.
Then life happened, as it is known to do. I got a little lost, and then I got a little found, then lost, then found, then lost… you get the idea.
I am pretty sure this describes most people walking around who have put energy into understanding the meaning of life and themselves. The energy of existential angst and enlightenment can be so invigorating and frustrating.
Many of the therapeutic theories incorporate this winding, spiraling path inward and then outward through knowledge and confusion and integration of ones experiences. The thing that is so useful about mindfulness is that it embraces the whole of things and accepts the dynamic quality of perspective such that being found and lost is, by its nature, transitory.
Very useful because it helps us from getting stuck in time and space, not caught in the past or the future, by placing us in the center of our life the present where actual change or action can take place.
Getting stuck happens when you define you have reached the pinnacle and now there is nowhere else to go; that kind of definition sets up a situation where one gets derailed off course. The idea that something is it, the answer, and now it must be repeated or held in place sets up a negative process where the energy degrades. Holding something in place denies the ultimate truth of growth and change. It creates a pull from the inside that pulls apart the thing held in place. The cycle of life is change – it moves, shifts, grows, continues with the cycle or spiral in and then out and then in again, up and then down and then up again, onward and through.
Each answer is an ending but it is also a beginning and so is in the center of ongoing, dynamic, movement. If you try to hold it still then the movement works against you and breaks it apart.
You can see this in relationship, your understanding of information, and existence. The more you know, the more you see, the more there is to know. It is ever-expansive incorporating and shifting. The same is true for relationship – trying to hold someone to a way of being that defines them at one age disallows growth and change – yes their basic nature remains the same but what is attended to or experienced, how it is expressed, changes over time as humans are dynamic beings.
This brings me back to The Way, The Tao. A larger more wholistic understanding of All that is, is, and it is inside and around, and it is simple not complex. Complexity is a trick that pulls you out of mindfulness.
Being mindful is a simple process. Sit, breath open, allow, observe, accept, incorporate, shift.
Thus, the journey of being lost and found I suppose.
Quite a lovely journey if you are willing to lightly respond to each experience with a joyous interest – like the fool card in the Tarot.
Interest but not attachment. Mindful, open, observation without good/bad judgement or interpretation. Interest that sounds like this – hmm, I wonder where this will take me – perhaps down the rabbit hole to find your way out by going within.
If you find yourself lost, fear not, a turn is soon coming that will set you again toward being found. If you are found, take heed that holding too strongly to that knowing, may actually impede further movement until you are again lost.
Attachment is the thing to avoid or release.
Love, desire, interest, curiosity and mindfulness, these are all lovely and full of what brings you through the energy of The Way.
Lost or found you are on your path. Follow your heart, and use your mindfulness, and joy will bring you home.
See you tomorrow.